What Is Real?

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I feel like I am in a dream

And the particles that make me

Are vibrating

Shifting from solid form

Into nothing.

Am I a ghost?

A stranger smiles my way.

I must be real.

Unless this is all fake.

How do you tell if you’re alive

When even pain just feels like a distant memory?

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And So I Smile

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My heart is breaking away
I feel my ribcage shrinking up
Your name is sweet ans sour on my tongue
And I’m losing faith in this word called love

{Chorus}
And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

I’m getting sick of these games
I never really liked them any way
And why am I so confused
When you seem to find this so amusing?
I was tired from the start
Now I’m just worn-out
And I’m losing

{Chorus}
And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

So what if I’m falling apart inside
So what if I have the urge to cry
So what if my heart is breaking
It don’t mean a thing…
So what if your lack of affection
Is eating at my emotions
So what if I have always wanted this
You don’t seem to give a shit

{Chorus}
And so I smile
To cover up the pain
And so I smile
And tuck my emotions away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t see the truth

And so I smile
To cover up this frown
And so I smile
So you’ll turn away
And so I smile
Even when I don’t want to
I smile so you won’t se e the truth

Games

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I can’t play these games any more
Let’s face. It you’ve got the higher score
I just want to turn in my piece
Take the dice because I’m taking my leave

(Chorus)
I’m done with the games
You’ve forced me to play
Done with the pain
I’ve gathered along the way
Done with the stress the mess in my brain
I’m done with the games

I’m not going to sit here and wait
For you to make your move
I’m not going to sit back and watch
Myself lose
To you
You made these rules
Let’s be honest I never had a chance

(Chorus)
I’m done with the games
You’ve forced me to play
Done with the pain
I’ve gathered along the way
Done with the stress the mess in my brain
I’m done with the games

I’ve had enough
I can’t take any more
I just wanted your love
You only wanted to score

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I’m done with the games
You’ve forced me to play
Done with the pain
I’ve gathered along the way
Done with the stress the mess in my brain
Done with the games

I can’t play these games any more
Was your heart really too much to ask for?

Shame

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I thought I saw you walking by

But your name I could not cry

Stuck underneath my tongue

Now I am hung

By the guilt I once felt

And feel again.

For the second time

I watched you exit my life.

Had I just opened my mouth

And called out

We could have made amends.

And if that wasn’t you,

The friend I once knew,

Then what would I do?

If they had walked away

Never responding to your name

Would I suffer a greater shame?

These answers I will never find

Because I was so hurt

I got left behind.